A time to dog ear pages


(This is me not apologizing for not updating in two months. Take note.)

I’m at home in Woodinville for my last ever three-week winter break. Next term, I’ll embark on what will hopefully be my last term at Oregon State, depending on if I can swing things my way.

Right now, all nestled in at our quiet, Christmas house in Hollywood Hills, my dog is laying beside me groaning and twitching in his sleep and  my parents are upstairs snoring so loudly I can hear them half a house away. I’m here, all sleepy and content in my fat, winter-y hibernation state feeling like I should still be in Portland, fast asleep, ready to wake up early to ride the MAX downtown to The Oregonian.

My internship at The O ended last Friday. Because A) my skills at writing long form narrative are seriously underdeveloped, B) it’s very fresh and still a little too emotional and C) I have a hard time accepting that my time there is actually over, I can’t begin to try to give any sort of chronological homage to the 11 weeks I spent there.

It seems rude for me to neglect blogging about that experience, as if I’m avoiding it, but at this point I still feel so close to it that I can’t put it into words. I couldn’t write well about it; I could only gush.  It would get out of my control. And gushing is sloppy and flaccid writing, so until I find a way to write tightly and eloquently about my (amazing, unparalleled, paradigm shift) experience at The Oregonian, I’m going to only write sparingly about it. It deserves more time and effort. That chapter deserves organizing; review; careful poring over the notebooks (I kept them all) and thinking back on all the people I met, the hands I shook and the things I learned.

I did learn the importance of writing tight and bright, I’ll say that. I can’t write about my time there in any lengthy sequence, so I’ll say it was simultaneously the happiest and most confusing time of my life. I was the most stressed and the most at ease. I was completely out of my comfort zone but felt like I was right where I belonged. And I left there surprised and thrilled and energized. Like I kind of knew where I was and where I was going, and other people were starting to know it too.

I’ve never been more humbled than by the e-mails, letters and stops by my desk on my last day. I feel like right now I’m standing at this very obvious and quickening threshold, and it’s a bit frustrating because I can’t just leap into doing what I want to do — there’s that whole school road block in my way. And people keep telling me it’s not going away.

For now, I’ll do what I have to do. I’ll take my 18 credits, make a solid effort to actually go to all of my classes, pass them and hopefully, Inshallah, graduate in a timely manner. I’ll freelance, wherever possible, and work for minimum wage to survive in the hours between sleep, barn work and school. I’ll buff up my resume and hammer out cover letters, choose and organize the obligatory five clips and dry clean all my interview pants and jackets. I’ll pick up some new pantyhose, some without any runs in them. I’ll try to keep my hair highlighted and my roots at bay in case the opportunity to interview arises. I’ll keep my nails filed and my teeth sharpened. And I’ll stay on top of it. All of it.

(There now, brevity and constraint. Bam.)

A wine-hater’s education


I’ve always hated wine. Until yesterday.

Most red wine that I’ve tasted has this bitter characteristic about it (which I just recently learned comes from the immaturity of the wine — how young it is — and the tannins in it) that lingers on the back of my tongue and makes me gag.

I know that makes me sound like a bratty 18-year-old. There are circles of people I know that love wine — whether or not they appreciate it or know anything about it, they love it. They love drinking a glass of wine at night with dinner, or after a long day while sitting in front of the TV, or with a cigarette most any time, or enjoying a bottle by themselves while sort of reading a high brow novel. That’s not me.

The bitterness of the tannins — which I also learned is amplified if the wine has been aged in any sort of oak barrel — destroys my taste buds. I used to describe it as a buttery taste because I could find no words for it. Aside from that, I also have a really simple palate. I hate most cheeses, mushrooms, spicy food, herbs and spices, fish, olives and creamy sauces.

So I probably hated wine because I wrote myself off as having no taste for it. I can’t differentiate between all the different “notes” and flavors that hide in there. But on Friday I was dragged out to Seattle with my parents (by dragged, I mean that I very willingly hopped into the car the same way my dog might because I was going stir crazy from a week of staying home recovering from the wisdom teeth extraction), who were planning on visiting several tasting rooms from Pike Place to Ballard as part of a research project for the startup that my stepdad works for. You know you’re in the right industry when doing a legitimate research project on a Friday afternoon means driving to Seattle, tasting great wines and making friends with local winemakers.

Aside: My stepdad is a brilliant businessman, as is my mom. The entrepreneurial spirit is alive and well in both my parents. About eight months ago, my stepdad and a few of his coworkers from former projects began a mobile wine industry software company that makes every part of the vintner’s job easier — from monitoring the grapes in the fields to tracking sales. Vinops is still in the development stages clearly, but it’s taking off.

By the time we got to Pike Place to check out the first tasting room, I was so thrilled about leaving my couch coma and being in the city that I was even willing to try a few of the wines. The last thing I wanted was to be the pouty, obviously immature and unseasoned kid (getting carded each time was obnoxious enough) among sophisticated adults tasting wine and partaking in intelligent discussion about the flavors, process and origin. I still was, though. I texted under the bar multiple times, sighed loudly and nearly spat out a few tastings.

But by the time we were at the second tasting room, I was warmed up (clearly the wine helped this) to the idea of opening my nose and palate and actually tasting it. I asked to see the tasting notes for each of the wines we tried and began paying attention to the different characteristics and intended flavors of each.

Some are aged longer than others, and in different types of wood barrels, both of which alter the flavor. Some have more alcohol, different pH levels. Some are peppery, spicy or loaded with dark fruits, or hints of citrus. Some have a back taste of tobacco, or chocolate, or walnut. Some are dark and biting and leave your mouth salivating. Some are light and tart. Some are tight; they were just opened, maybe they weren’t ready. Some are loose and smooth and set your mouth at ease, like talking to an old friend.

Each one is different. The grapes are different, the climate and soil where they were grown is different, the process is different. But all the vintners I met were more or less the same — friendly, easygoing, fiercely passionate, slightly eccentric.

The one I liked the most was a white wine — clearly a tasty wine for beginners — at the Vintner’s Annex in Ballard. It was loaded with citrus without being overly acidic. It tasted like grapefruit and smelled a bit like hay and fresh air. It was young and pretty. Had this wine been a person, it would have been a light and airy but natural blonde, with freckles splattered across her nose and peach fuzz white hairs lighting on her arms and the back of her neck.

There are 90 wineries in Woodinville, the town where my parents and I live. We live less than a quarter-mile from 18 different tasting rooms, and there are dozens of others within walking distance. It’s always been a part of the culture here — Chateau Ste. Michelle was the first, and as my mom describes it, so many of the others spawned in a related manner from wine enthusiasts who originally worked there, then moved out and began making their own wines nearby. And so on.

My parents are extremely knowledgeable about wine. They’re members at most of the wineries and know all of the winemakers by name. I had been to all of them, talked to the people there and admired the beautiful granite counters and careful lighting of the tasting rooms, but never felt a connection to it because I had this intense dislike for the taste, and sort of the accompanying lifestyle, of the product itself.

We paced our tour well yesterday and munched on French bread in between tastings. By the time we left the Vintner’s Annex, I thought I kind of liked wine, especially the light white ones that reminded me of the outdoors, or the way the woods smell in the middle of summer. I will continue to steer clear of wines aged  in oak and heavy in tannins, but the underlying current of passion and personality that lingers in the wineries will be harder to stay away from.

Post wisdom teeth wisdoms


Ohhh, blogosphere. And Twitterverse. How neglectful I’ve been. I feel like all my rare and randomly-written blog posts include the word neglect in the first line: I’m sorry.

I got my wisdom teeth out today. I’m currently sitting on my little ol’ Dell at my parents’ house in Woodinville with two bags of frozen peas plastered to each side of my face, secured there by four of those long athletic hair bands that girls use to hold their manes back when they’re working out/washing their face. (Side note: When I bought 25 of those bands in assorted textures, designs and colors, I KNEW they would come in handy someday. Five years later…)

In the last few weeks, I’ve been too busy to even get on Facebook much — oh, horror of horrors. After I ended my internship at Capital Press two Wednesdays ago, I immediately started packing my life (which seems to get bigger and require more boxes each year), cleaning up my house, and beginning the process of moving out of my beloved south town and dropping crap into my parents’ garage (time bomb, start ticking). A few really exciting (and extremely cost-effective) opportunities have come my way in the last few months, both of which will put me out of my comfort zone… so I’m going to take them.

I start my fall academic reporting internship with The Oregonian Sept. 27, which basically feels like it’s going to be my final and perhaps most significant opportunity for a launchpad into the world of professional journalism. Big plans and lots of things to do beforehand — still need to talk to my college adviser and the office of financial aid about taking a term off but still taking credits. I still need to get my hair done (my roots are about two inches long right now), nail down the logistics of leaving my lease and having someone else sign in and, oh yeah, find a place to live in Portland.

As far as that goes, I think I’m gonna look for a place close to the MAX that’s farther outside of Portland. A room in a house or a studio would be fine at this point. Anything aside from a cardboard box under Burnside Bridge would be just great at this point. I’m aiming for a place that has good running nearby and a good park where my dog can make happy puppy bathroom time. And as much as I would love to spend a beautiful Oregon autumn downtown in the heart of the Rose City, it’s pretty impossible to find a place to lease for three months, with a dog, in the realm of $500.

Somehow, I’m still not panicking. Somehow. Procrastinating is an art form for me. Deadlines are like my little sidekick. They empower me. That’s probably why I love journalism so much… Bam.

The other opportunity involves a decision my parents and I made to move my show horse out of training for the first time in the three years we’ve owned him and bring him to a barn in Corvallis so that I can ride him and train him myself. Since we bought him in 2007, Carlos was a show horse, through and through. Understanding his talent and potential as a four-year-old at the time, we bought him as an investment. We decided we’d build him up, show him all over the place and get his name out there, then sell him, hopefully for a profit and to a good home, when the time was right.

Then the economy crashed, the nationwide slaughter ban was passed, and people started letting their horses loose on government land or on Indian reservations (halters still on, etc) because they couldn’t even afford to feed them anymore… let alone the idea of trying to sell them in a worsening recession. This made the situation for anyone with a good horse to sell really volatile and virtually impossible.

The horse (Carlos, who by this time had become our horse and more importantly my baby) didn’t sell. We didn’t even market him, because we knew we wouldn’t be able to get a third of what we paid and there would be no guarantee that he would be go to solid owners that wouldn’t turn around and sell him again or let him go to waste. So recently we made the decision to give him a little break from constant showing and take him out to Corvallis for a few months of grass hay, reckless running and straight being a horse.

When I found the place that I decided was perfect for him just outside Corvallis, the barn owner showed me a slightly dingy but charming single apartment in one of the barns with a beautiful screened-in deck that faces out into endless pasture. So if everything works out, after I finish the internship at the O, I’ll spend the rest of the school year living at the barn (WITH my horse, something I’ve wanted my whole life), mucking stalls and feeding horses constantly, and taking on yet another new adventure.

I’m young, still in school, sporadically employed and the only other living thing I’m responsible for currently is my dog. At this point in my life, it’s all about taking chances and forcing myself out of my comfort zone.

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